Good evening to all! Tonight I am watching the Golden Globes and drinking some fun Australian wine. I have the day off work today which is a much needed day off. A couple night ago at work was a good day at work until about 9:30pm. I experienced my first code blue on my own patient. The results were not good at all. This experience pretty much scared the crap out of me. I was shaking and did not take the experience well. After all was said and done for about a 10 minute period I did not want to be a nurse. However, I went back to work the next day and all was well with my soul. That night I did not go back to my apartment, I just could not be alone. I spent the night at one of my secretaries place, Colleen. It helped to talk it all out with her, someone who was there when all this was going on. We had a great time that night too. It was a nice stress relief. From this experience I learned alot. Just in the report I give to on coming nurses and also when I receive report. Also, I think I learned to have alot more compassion with my patients, not that I did not have it before, just to spend more time with them than I already do. From doing this you never know how much of a difference this could make in a patients life.
I decided to start writing again. This is definitely an over do decision for me to make. I have needed to get into doing this for sometime, but I kept putting it off... something I am very good at doing. I bought a beautiful leather celtic journal that smells quite nice this evening and made my first entry. There has been so much going on inside of my tiny head for such a long time and have had no way of getting it out and now I finally do.
It feels like there has not been a whole lot happening in my life until late. I had a great uncle pass away recently. Everyday I work there is something crazy that happens, good or bad. A big majority of the happenings in my life lately have been decisions I am making about my future. Yes, I know, I can make decisions and plan things till I am blue in the face but it is God that makes the ultimate decision. Well, good thing I am praying like crazy for some doors to open.
God has been teaching me alot of things lately. One of the many things is that it is possible for me to open up my heart and life again to somebody else. I never really thought I would I ever meet somebody again and was kinda okay with being single for possibly the rest of my life. However, God just has this way of being some mysterious and random like that. And honestly, I am pretty thankful for this crazy intervention in my life. Yes, this is right everyboday, I am crazy and so is Jon. And the good thing is that we recognize this craziness and embrace it fully. However, the only problem that is happening in this situation between Jon and I is the face that he is in Oklahoma. Yeah a whole 994.1 miles from here. The good thing about this situation between us is that he is coming here to Cleveland in March.
Now that I have made this entry entirely too long I think I shall go and clean around this apartment. I guess I just had too much to say since it has been a while since I blogged.

Free at last, free at last, thank God almighty we are free at last...